Productivity is the new hot trend of the current capitalistic age, and for a good reason.
While leaving life peacefully is the best way all in all, but in some place and under certain circumstances, some people can’t find anything to eat if they didn’t earn it.
The only thing preventing many people that I know from ditching their careers and jobs for a peaceful life in the countryside, is because they don’t have enough money to buy a plot of land and the necessary equipment to make earning money a passive thing.
With a low average salary and high real estate prices, it’s downright impossible for the average man of a third world country to find financial freedom of any sorts.
But we’re not aiming for average here, at least I’m not.
I started this journey fully aware of what it means to rely on myself and only myself. I’ve forsaken any form of support systems (Churches, rip off communities…), for the purpose of having total authority over my life.
And that’s the first step.
People don’t realize this, but, a human’s psyche goes through many phases during its growth.as
First, a child becomes self-aware, and as such, fascinated with his own existence. He’s got many hopes and dreams, and he’s not shy to say them out loud.
“I wanna marry a supermodel and buy a bugatt, dad! I can’t wait to grow up!”
But the dad knows, it’s not realistic for a son of his to achieve such things. He’s a blue collar worker, and at times, putting food on the table is difficult!
Alas, he chooses not to break his son’s spirit, for the world shall have its way with him soon enough.
And soon it did. The boy grew up, went to school, tried sports, or even talking to girls and playing video games. He’s tried many things, even for a little, to have an idea of what he could do with his natural capabilities.
Yet, he wasn’t the fastest kid, nor the smartest, nor the strongest, and he wasn’t even the funniest or the most energetic. He reached teenage-hood already, and most of his dreams were crushed.
Yet, There was one thing that he was sure of!
Whenever he teamed up with his buddies, they could do anything. So, he goes from having a personal dream to looking for a group with a ‘noble’ goal to dissolve his sense of self into.
And soon enough he finds what he’s been looking for. The fans of a sports’ team, a small local gang, or even the cool friend group at school. They all serve the same purpose, and he chooses one to join.
Thankfully, he didn’t have any over glaring defects, so the groups accept him and welcome him warmly.
This is where most people’s development halts. They deem themselves as social animals, and within their social groups, they can have their wishes come true.
For example, the tech savvy boy is the tech-iest kid of the group, even though he can’t write a basic ‘Hello World’ code, so he gets celebrated as being good at tech whenever he does something amazing with the compute.
“Dang, Albert, you’re the best computer technician ever!” (At our group)
“You skills are second to none!” (Within our group)
And so, Albert enjoys the high that comes with being part of a group. Each person is the best at something, so they can make their wishes of being THAT person come true, without being good enough for it.
Frankly, it’s an enjoyable experience and it’s quite difficult to convince someone to forsake such positive emotions for the unknown.
Yes, the unknown.
That’s the next stage of development.
At some point, a person realizes that he’s been living in a simulated environment, that the larger group has no connection to the real world.
And even more importantly, that he’s done nothing with his life so far.
He’s already in his late twenties, with a stable job and an average girlfriend that he met through a shared friend. Life seems good on the surface, and his friends give him all the validation he needs to be a functional person.
Yet, at times, before he goes to sleep, he remembers the five-year-old himself say ‘I want a hot supermodel girlfriend and a bugatti, dad!’
He laughs when he remembers that memory for the first time, and the second and fifth and tenth.
However, one day, he doesn’t laugh at that memory, but rather, a tear drops on his cheek.
He realizes that his current life is nothing like what he dreamed of, yet at the same time, he’s aware that he can’t achieve such things with his weak willpower and low motivation.
So, he turns towards his girlfriend who’s lying asleep on the bed next to him, and kisses her on the cheek, and goes back to sleep.
However, somewhere else in the world, there are other people with differing opinions on the group’s arrangement.
Michael, who’s thirty years old, finds himself to be the butt of the joke of his friend group most of the time, and although he was never happy with the arrangement, he laughed at their jokes out of fear of getting rejected.
But enough was enough, he decided to tell them to go fuck themselves, and ended his friendship with them.
He ended up isolated for a while, and during that time, he examined how he’s been living his life.
And he cried, for he was paying way too much to be a member of that group and got back little to nothing.
So, he decided. He no longer needed validation.
He still needed it, but he starved himself.
And onwards he went, facing the world with nothing but his mind and eyes to guide him, and that was when he started making progress.
After a while, people enjoyed his company, and he learned many skills and found some new interesting hobbies. After a couple of years, he had more romantic opportunities than he knew what to do with, and everyone wanted to be his friend.
Many people already considered him a member of their friend, constantly sucking up to him to get some validation from him.
However, he was no longer the same as before.
He didn’t ask for validation; he was the source of it.
He was no longer a lackey, but instead a god among men.
And it only cost him himself.
Today’s recommended reading: Power vs Force
Today’s blurb:
I’ve done well today. I’ve organized my room, studied for about five hours, and I’m on track to fixing my diet and my sleep. I’ve tried a certain ritual to help me transmute my sexual energy into willpower to use for my personal endeavors, and I’ll give a review of it a month from now. I find it easier to talk to strangers without feeling like I’m forcing it. I’m now more of a participator than an outsider peering it.
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