You must’ve heard this before, that self-improvement is just a sophisticated way of escaping your own problems.
And I agree. If your goal is to learn this skill, that skill, hit this metric, get that raise, then you’re just a puppet in another man’s show.
As long as the ultimate benefactor of your hard work isn’t you, then you’re still an over-glorified slave.
Wake up to reality, and stop role-playing in life. You’re not a victim, you’re not a winner, and you’re not an underdog either. Heck, you’re not you, and that’s the closest thing there is!
If life was so easy that each of us could find their life purpose in the click of a button, wouldn’t life be amazing?
Right?
Well, here’s the catch about the human brain. It’s difficult to convince it do things it doesn’t like, and vice versa.
The fact that you’re still in the gut means that some part of your is genuinely happy and at rest with your current position in the world. There are many reasons why this could happen, but ultimately, a safety seeking mentality is the biggest culprit.
Ask yourself whether you’re living your life in such a way as to be as comfortable as possible, or, is it that you do them because you want to.
Comfort and safety aren’t bad, but as long as your living your life honestly, then you’ll achieve them in no time at all.
You just need to work on what really must be worked on; you.
Not your physique, not your mentality, not your wealth; you.
Trying to make a change in your external life without having the appropriate change in the inner one will, without a doubt, cause you to rebound back to your old behavior.
Start by putting yourself in uncomfortable situations, until you feel something’s going wrong with your brain (Anxiety and stress). Try not to run away from that feeling, be it.
You’ll get strokes of inspiration. You’ll learn why certain events in the world cause you so much distress, why you fidget when ever you feel slight discomfort.
Be comfortable with stillness. Learn that it’s okay to be the ultimate predator, and the ultimate prey as well. Give yourself permission to be your best self, and you’ll evolve.
So long as you have ultimate control over your thoughts, your sensations, and your minute actions, then you’ll be ready to remodel yourself on the go.
However, the path is slightly difficult, but you’ll see me attempt it anyway. The main sticking point about my journey is that even though my techniques might appear in other sources, I won’t copy paste another’s program and run it.
I will do it my way, because my whole life I’ve living as I’ve been told, and that hasn’t worked all too well. Frankly, I don’t have much to lose at this point, might as well see what life has to offer in the end.
Today’s recommended reading: Siddharta.
Blurb:
Today I had an exam, and had the chance to meet some of my classmates. Granted, some of them I hated, and some were cool to spend time with. However, it annoyed me how anxious I were as I walked through the university’s walls. Granted, it was merely a blip compared to how bad my anxiety used to be, but I still wasn’t satisfied. I wanted perfect, and I couldn’t rest until I got it. As these thoughts emerged in my brain, I smiled. I realized how much of my actions were the results of my programming. My anxiety, my perfectionism, and even my envy towards others; they’re all modules that can be tweaked, and I’m all for that. My mission in this blog is to be completely transparent with my readers, as I’m attempting to change myself, and I won’t shy away from reporting my failures just as I wouldn’t hesitate to report my wins.
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My daily quests, other than studying and going to the gym and whatnot, are meditation for an hour and too banishing rituals. Occasionally, I do astral work, but only before sleeping.
Right now, I’m attempting to create an astral castle in the form of a hospital, with a master doctor who’s the best doctor in the world. I’ll tweak it once every night, and report my results on it about six months later.
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