Hello everyone, and welcome to my humble blog. This is where I’ll document my journey towards change; transforming myself, for the better.

What most of you don’t know, is that we have little to no free will. Our actions are predetermined by our thoughts and beliefs, and those are the progeny of our genetics and environment.

The environment part is simple. It’s based on exposure and feedback.

A kid behaves a certain way, his peers laugh at him, he stops doing it fearing exclusion. He becomes bitter, thinking others were better than him (and they were, for they had power over his actions).

Finally, the child becomes shy, withdrawn, and a pseudo-mute unless spoken to.

Another kid behaves the exact same way, down to the minute micro expressions, and gets rewarded for the same behavior; he’ll grow to be charismatic, with a generous heart and a tendency to do good and see good in others.

It’s unfair, arbitrary, and rage-inducing, but that’s how life is.

If you examined the kids we mentioned above, you’ll notice that those who end up rejected weren’t as ‘qualified’ as those who get celebrated for the same actions.

It’s a little stereotypical, but here’s an example you can relate to. You tell a (mid) joke that no one laughs at, only for the popular kid to say it again a couple of seconds later, to which the crowd explodes in laughter, as if he was a master comedian in the making.

Sometimes, it feels as if the human race as a whole had a mind of its own, making certain decisions that it deemed best fit for its own survival.

Life is a rigged shitty game where your luck determines everything! Let’s cry about our miserable fates like little bitches…

(If you agree with those words that I told you so easily, then I’m sorry, but you’re doomed to fail from the start.)

This isn’t your typical red-pill, black-pill, money-pill or whatever. Here, we only care about what actually works, without asking for handouts from the world in terms of validation.

Yes, confidence matters, good looks matter, looking healthy matters. And yes, looking like you could defend yourself in a scuffle matters even more!

But! Here’s the twist, if you believe those qualities are hard limits that you could never overcome, then you couldn’t be more wrong. Believing that you have a certain degree of free will, paradoxically, gives you the free will needed to exerce control over your reality.

Fact is, humans’ nervous system scans for what I called inner traits (charisma, confidence, unshakability…) as the defining criteria for judging a human being’s value.

Hence why we see beautiful girls with unattractive guys who have nothing to their names, and treat those girls like absolute garbage.

In those situations, the woman’s nervous system deemed the guy as a valuable mate, someone whose genetics were worth passing to the next generation.

And the woman is correct, because the ability to control your own inner programming is much more important than your, well, anything else. The ‘loser’ has more free will than a semi-successful 9 to 5 guy for example.

You’d think an unattractive drug addict would have bad confidence and self-esteem issues due to rejection and ridicule, but you’d be wrong to think so.

He doesn’t give a fuck about their opinions, hence, their words have no powers over the programming of his mind.

In life situations where people are judged more for their character and social skills instead of credentials (dating, hanging out, and even promotions in jobs), the druggie would be superior to the above average guy who’s find with average folks, but gets self-conscious around pretty girls and self-made rich guys his own age.

In conclusion, being okay in your own skin is much more important than the quality of the skin itself, and the key to achieving it is to not give a fuck about others’ opinions. Whether by realizing how short life is, or because you think it’s cool to be your own boss, such attitude is achievable, and I’ll show how in my journey.

As for our DNA, which can be called the memories that we acquired from our ancestors. They’re the genes that were successful throughout history (evident by their survival till today), and thus, acting in a way that goes against the information contained by them will be difficult.

Heck, imagine going up to a veteran who survived ten wars by going launching fire as soon as he sees the first enemy, and telling him that using grenades for a safe hiding spot would be much better.

What do you think his reaction will be?

“You’re just a rookie! What do you know! My pal Johnny did just that and died on his first day of battle!”

Yeah, there’s no convincing someone who learned something through experience, especially when he had to avoid death as part of the learning process.

That’s how difficult changing your DNA is.

But is it impossible? We’ll see.

This is Subject Zero, the writer of this blog. You can call me Zero.

I’m a person with above average intelligence, and under-average everything else. I believe results are the most important metric to judge everything’s performance and claims.

Heck, I might be in the bottom one percent when it comes to certain traits, like height and neuroticism!

Yet, this journey will serve as a testament to all the knowledge that I acquired throughout my grueling quest to find ways to change myself for the better.

When basic advice like ‘Be nice to others’ didn’t work as advertised, I didn’t falter.

Instead, I searched for more. Stumbling upon Frame Control and Laws of Power. This time, the advice actually worked, and I started seeing some of the results that I so yearned for.

However, more than anything else, I wished for true power.

I wanted to learn why those tools worked the way they did, because even though they did, it all felt performative and vain.

Two years later, I found neurolinguistic programming, cognitive behavioral therapy and Carl Jung’s teachings.

I felt satisfied, but these were too verbose, convoluted, and unsuited for someone of my temperament. (I’m very lazy and energy deficient, at least for the moment).

So, I tried looking for more.

Then, by complete coincidence, I found occult. It was bizarre to say the least, but I uncovered many gems through the jumble and make-belief jargon.

And here we are, starting today, my journey starts.

A journey where I strive to be the ultimate programmer of my identity, and hence, my reality. Believe or not, if you can change your beliefs, then you can change the world.

Each of these daily posts will have a paragraph of one hundred words where I objectively describe my current situation and what I believe I could achieve (at least as objectively as my current perspective allows), and they’ll be the main way for judging my growth, or lack of.

Day 0:

I believe I’m a loser, in all honestly. I can’t even get out of bed early, and I don’t go to university as frequently as I want to. I don’t have many friends and acquaintances, but where can I find them? Do I expect them to fall onto my lap? What a miserable existence, and I can’t even get out of it. Sometimes, I think a person like me should never have kids because I can’t even stay faithful to the small goals that I set, but here we go. I decided that I’ll give the knowledge I acquired a shot, instead of dying and taking it to the grave with me. Here goes nothing, secretly hoping for everything.

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Meditation helps a lot with my mental troubles, but the change it brings isn’t permanent unless paired with other tools.

By the way, I’m a university student and I’ve been going to the gym for three years. The improvement of my physique over the last two years is the biggest reason for believing that I can change anything about myself.

P.S. Go to the gym, you won’t regret it, I promise. No matter your other obligations, it’s worth it. The goal isn’t to get girls or to hit PRs or whatnot. It’s that moment when you look in the mirror, and a see a different body. That when your belief will start to shift.

P.S.S these words are equivalent in my writing, ego = identity = programming = frame = perspective = universe.

P.S.S.S these words are also equivalent to each other, consciousness = void = programmer = god.

Peace out, and if any of you have any interesting ideas to share, then leave a comment.

My priority is to change my programming, so stay tuned, and check out newer blog posts!