Hello again, it’s been a while. To be frank, I’ve been wallowing in despair for the last couple of weeks. I haven’t done much with my life, but I’ve done quite a bit. Still, I’m aware that I’m stunting my life by choosing the easy path, and spending every day wishing for handouts and what-if … Read more

You really only have one of two choices when you get external data that’s non-conforming with your inner programming. ie, getting overwhelmed emotionally. First, you understand those emotions, work through them, and come to a satisfying middle point where you upgrade your thinking but still remain yourself more or less. Or, you can let go … Read more

Sometimes, the will is there, but you can’t muster the effort necessary to go through whatever action you want. In that case, you should trick yourself. Make the new action as comfortable as possible. Which means, as conforming to your old identity as you can. With that, you’ll find that you can do many things … Read more

You’re struggling through life needlessly, because you’re fighting two battles. One against the world to prove yourself, and another against your subconscious. The first one I’d understand, especially if you’re attempting something that society would deem you unworthy/uncapable/unsuitable for. However, the second one is pathological. Your intent must be whole, and you should have your … Read more

As you saw, I’ve skipped posting for about a week or so. I decided to face it and come clean with all that’s been going on in my mind. Disclaimer: This post won’t teach you anything technical, it’s more of a trial through failure and how to grow from botched experiences, though that’s up to … Read more

If you have to choose between not doing something, or half-assing it, without any other choice, then feel free to half-ass it. Keeping the habit alive is more important than keeping it perfect.

Posts have been inconsistent lately, so there’s that. I’ve finished my tests for the previous subject yesterday, so I’ve finally had more space to deal with things. Life’s just like a pendulum, the more it swings one way, the stronger the rebound will be. It’s a smart person’s duty to be able to use life’s … Read more

At this point, I believe I’ve hit a new all-time low. No, it’s not financially, nor physically, nor mentally. Rather, I see the mental movie going on in my mind, and I’m aware that all of this programming is bullshit. However, there’s still something missing. Or perhaps, there’s too much going on in my head … Read more

At some point, you’ll understand. That life is so easy, but only monotonous and repetitive. You’ll learn how to become the person you want to be, and the only problem at that point is you no longer know what you want to be. Or even what it’d mean for you to become the person you … Read more

In spite of my worsening motivation to do anything, this is my daily check-in. I have an exam tomorrow, wish me well.